About the Author
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From the early stage of his life, the founder of this website has been an ardent seeker of truth. He sticks hard to what he believes is right, even in the face of odds. In his high school days, he was wondering why one after the other religion claims to be right. Despite having born of Muslim parents, yet he gave way to justice in his heart to find out what is in store in other religions. The eagerness of comparative perception prodded him to take religion subject during his high school days at a catholic school. This later led him into an exhaustive research and study on comparative religion. He was curious to know why there are so many religions, when the messengers have but common objective sent by the same God. His mind was not only disturbed by religious conflicts in this world, but even within Islam itself. His expectation was too high for people who are known to be learned in Islam, but then it was so frustrating for him to find out later that the mode of Islamic teachings has not the least to transform people into a true and good Muslim. His intention to discover the answer to his dilemma was interrupted by the emergence of the revolution in Mindanao when he was third year high school. Jihad was the only talk he knew all about why the revolution has to take place in his own homeland. He was convinced no less than his big brother late Uttoh Salahuddin, a contemporary of Nur Misuari who pioneered the creation of the MNLF as front organization of Moro Mujahideen. And in his participation, he became one of the cadre officers trained in Malaysia belonging to the batch 300. Just like many other members of the revolution, he was too willing to sacrifice everything to include his life in favor of the life to come in the hereafter. His expectation was so high that justice certainly will prevail within the rank and file of the organization while it is a religious struggle. Everyone's heart was soaring high with fervent burning rage to tackle jihad even to the graveyard. Until one day his fate struck him hard in one of the battle encounters resulting to his broken left leg from the explosion of 105 howitzer and the martyrdom of his big brother, Utto Salahuddin who was then the Chief of Staff of the Bangsamoro Army and Finance Officer of the MNLF at the same time. Not long afterwards, he started to feel the renewed direction of revolutionary policies emanating from the central committee. Something has gone wrong. Many were already lured to return to the folds of law, while others even joined the government military forces to the extent of fighting back against their own comrades. Some went out of control in their direction and others have gone loose and wild. He became frustrated of his expectation, for he could no longer find and feel the atmosphere of a solid camaraderie and the harmoneous environment of brotherhood. At this juncture, the founder of this website thought of waging a crusade to rectify Islam in his own self and to those who would dare to listen to him. This was the time when he embarked on his journey into the world of mysticism. He was hungering too much to discover the hidden wonders of secrets of what a religion is, what God is to him, and most of all the rational of his existence. Many learned and friends have warned him not to get into the circle of mysticism due to danger of encountering apostasy and blasphemy. But he was determined to pursue; if only to satisfy his eagerness to unveil the answer to his craze. For about eighteen years, he delved deeper and deeper into the world of internal plains crossing through layers of light upon light. He attained unexplained gushing in of knowledge, unexpected miracles; healing and other supernatural experiences. This later made him understand what a Sufi is. He was at first enjoying those strange experiences, although to him were only mystical privileges normally achieved while in the course of sufi practices. It just come if you attain a certain degree of self effacement through migration from the animality of the self. During his sufi practice, he was able to unveil hidden secrets of the self that continuously defy against the will of God even in the stage of sufism. He traveled all along the way, but found no solution to his doubts and longingness. For him, everything within is but fantasy and dreams for the sake of the self. The self is perched as the most important character in all sufi undertakings and not God. God only seems to appear as an instrument for the self to attain the highest degree of purity and salvation. And in the course of his struggle in sufism, his finding reveals that, "lillahi taala (in the name of Allah) was only a pretext, but the ultimate goal tells clearly that, everything is done not for the sake of God, but for the sake of the salvation of the self". But that was not his objective. He longed to attain satisfaction of knowing fully the entirety of his nothingness before the imminent godhoodness of his God. The author continued his untiring struggle and searched from every person he knows imbued with the knowledge of God, but did not find what he is searching for. This was the most critical moment in his life when he came up with a conclusion that no one knows God and nobody could lead him to the way where he could find his satisfaction in life. He aimed to ask God deep inside him, because God told him, "I was a hidden treasure, I wish to be known, so I created the world". Despite of God telling men that whatever is in your mind and in your heart is not ME, yet he was not convinced what others perceived in its literal sense and delved deeper in deciphering all what were said by God. At times he would ask himself, "Am I worshipping the real God? or I am just shaping my own God in my feebled mind and worship it? when I myself is burdened with the question of knowing God". In his desperate search, in November 1991 he resigned from the government service as a Senior Development Management Officer at the Office on Muslim Affairs, Office of the President of the Republic of the Philippines and was decided to pursue his spiritual struggle. His plan to go for seclusion for twenty years was final, hoping for a divine response to his search. But before he would leave for his journey to the door of reality, he first took the chance of establishing his family living condition as well as their financial foundation being an obligation of a father. This preparation includes a house that is estimated to last for 20 years while in seclusion, and a little amount of livelihood source enough to feed his five children. And, in order to realize all these things, he left for Sabah, Malaysia with the hope of finding the necessary amount for his preparation. In his venture to the State of Sabah, he was serious to look for something better for his family and a chance perhaps that he might find some to supplement his knowledge in going to seclusion. Unexpectedly, the author and his younger brother Hj. Hamid Salahuddin launched into an opportunity that opened the door to their fortune. They earned millions out of a deal with a cigarettes company in just four months time. To him, this fortune has solved all his necessities in preparation for his seclusion. But that was not the end of his success when incidentally, he and his brother met an old Indonesian from Samarinda, Banjar Masin by the name of Abang Alimuddin. A very soft spoken Indonesian speaking old man opened his heart towards reality he is searching for. updated March 2, 2007 During his encounter with this old man, as a Murshid, the author finally found out the ocean full of knowledge hiding outside the bounds of sufism. This was the time when the author concluded that to engage in sufism is likened unto an endless journey without reaching the door of your quest. It is a never ending search and a continued struggle for spiritual enrichment for the sake of oneself and not for the sake of God. Sufism is only an expression of nothingness, but full of imagination and self-centered direction. It is a process of extremity for the salvation of oneself; not only to exclude all the rest of the creations, but to include his family to the extent of sacrificing everything. Not realizing that all these things are so much valuable in the eyes of Allah. When the Author realized that he was able to break through the 70,000 veils of light that brought him near the door of his search, he was overwhelmed by extreme happiness and sorrows. It was an endless happiness that brought him to live in almost unbelievable life, because he found the key to the chamber of reality. At times, he would feel depressed for those who disregard reality in place of personal ends. At times, he would shiver from fear for he might not be able to discharge his role properly for what the people needs from him. But then, he also knew it very well that, his role is only to deliver the message of what is truth just as the Prophet Muhammad was told by Allah. In July 1995 he brought Haqiqat Muhammad to Basilan, Philippines after he was finally given the authority to teach haqiqat. He started as one and after 12 years almost a thousand heard and learned about the secret of himself before the eyes of Allah. However, upto this writing, only 379 had just actually entered the official enlightenment about haqiqat. They are all scattered from Basilan, Jolo, Zamboanga,Lingayun, Zambo del Norte, and Manila. July as the month when Haqiqat Muhammad was brought to the Philippines has now been adopted as the official date of the anniversary of Haqiqat Muhammad in the Philippines.(gathering of all brothers and sisters in haqiqa). |